For the past 18 days I have spent my life in a tiny country(?i dont even know what the hell this is) halfway across the world in a place you could call Hong Kong.

Life has been pretty great and I am relieved to have left my past troubles in the states, which I may again add, seem to be halfway across the world.

However going to your place of origin after being reared, fed and raised in steroid injected America also has its issues. Therefore for the past 18 days, which really feels like 18 months, I've received thousands of comments regarding my height, appearance, accent, fat and pretty much every single other superficial factor you can ponder.

Here are some examples:

"You don't look like you are from Hong Kong. Are you from another country?" FYI blog readers I am 100% Chinese. How the fuck do I look like I am from out of town??

"Don't worry its just baby fat." uhhh thanks I feel much more relieved now.

"You look strong." If there's something worse than telling someone she's big is to sugar coat it by telling them they are "strong."

"You are big!" But telling someone that they are big still sucks.

"Its not that you don't look Chinese, it's that you speak Chinese like an American." My first reaction is to casually laugh this comment off while I forcibly remind myself never to reveal the fact that Chinese is my first language, I've spoken it longer than English, and continue to speak the language daily in my household. With some multimillion Chinese poeople in Hong Kong, and only 1 in some 90 odd Asian being white, and the white person usually being some sunburnt British tourist, my second reaction is how the fuck do they know what an American Chinese accent sounds like and much less, an American that can speak Chinese?

"Are you really Chinese? Because you look Korean." How the hell can you tell the difference and what the hell is that supposed to mean?

Note to reader: All these quotes were spoken to me in Chinese. But heres my favorite quote which came from many street vendors, not even acknowledging the fact that I am chinese much less take the time to speak to me in the language.

"You likey? You buy many sherts ony fo' five dollas."

Hmm. If I can't even feel at home in my birthplace, where am I to go now????